When I speak

im in need of changing the way i handle things.

the way i see things.

the way i hear things.

the way i feel things.

with the emo crap im in.. its not going to bring me anywhere.

this is hard.

i thought things will be better the moment your world stops evolving around mine.

why do I feel the lost, and still couldn’t get over.

The Cupcakes have been telling me to get real and see the world.

they’ve rattled encouraging naggy words. that i deserve much better.

i wonder who’s the saviour tt’s gonna steal the stolen heart.

yeah, someday.

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now back to the more serious issue.

i can feel the change in me. is this normal?

the angst. and yes, the new people i’ve met. they’re great bunch of people.

superb nice and all. in irony, i cant seem to click with any.

is it because i’ve become less engaging?

or do I read into the book too much?

has it been battered too deep that it has forgotten to love again?

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i have no idea. but i know, Allah will not place a burden on us knowing we cant carry it well.

I want to shift everything aside. with the company of my much loved cupcakes, Insyallah.

why are all the pretty and nice girls falling for idiotic guys?

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 i should have known my place in your heart.

to begin with, there wasn’t even a place.

you’ve stole it. let it sailed. caught it again. and crushed it. brutally.

I wasn’t even an option. right?

how low am I in your eyes. i wish i could hear it out from you.

to aid my journey. to lessen the love. & to move on. 

she’s been in e tightest situation we can ever think of and what do we do?

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nothing. we expect her to come to us. when we know what she’s like.

and we complained about our miseries. when that misery is caused by our own negligence and over-reactiveness towards certain issues, and yea, maybe tiredness.

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so fair enough. she went on to find other friends who showed care and concern. friends who asked. friends who were there for her.

im not saying we’re bad friends. we did share things together in the past. but thats the past. people can only think of the past but nothing can be done to change the past. it’ll stay on as memories. worst, people will just forget.

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so my point is, we’re here to live for the present. people dont lead their lives based on ‘kenangan terindah’ aje. we have to work for the present. and that includes treasuring our friends and do away with ‘ungkits’. and there’s no such thing as “the Perfect friend”. if there is, tell me. I’ll be her friend.

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no one is to be blamed. not even those ants who bit me yesterday. irritating semut(s) !! change the bedsheet alr. wonder who ate sweets in the room. besides me uh.

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ok. *case closed*

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lets sidetrack a lilttle eh,

i went for theraphy sessions. $1 per session. HAHA! perangai makcik2 sia farah. yup. the whole family went. some current was inserted from our feet to all parts of the body. purpose is to charge the cells and improve blood circulation. and improve the immune system as well. as we all know, its up to our immune system to fight diseases. the only way to stay healthy is to strengthen the immune system. so if people dont take e whole cause of medications given by doctors, especially ANTIBIOTICS, they’re worsening their immune system and asking for trouble. lyy ingat ehk lyy.

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i was being told by the therapist, doctors only treat symptoms. symptoms like fever, chills and runny nose are not sickness. they’re just signals that tells the body to “Hey Smarty, the brain wants you to catch a cold so stop whatever shit you’re doing, go visit the doctor and get some sleep”.  A foreign particle is invading the body, actually. and the body wants to recuperate. how smart! bcoz no human being will ever know their limits unless they’re down with fever. the wonders of God. =) and the therapist said I can be healthy if i want to.

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for active young people like me, its a MUST drink 12-16 glass of water. i told him i drank 5 aje and he reacted..quite err..strongly against it? hmmmmm. ok time to catch a glass!

The heart isn't always right.

“The greatest irony of love; loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life. And sometimes, you think you’re already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again.

 For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. Some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love. Love is always present. It’s just that one was being loved too much and the other was being love too little. As we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always right.

Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them, we are just for passing time while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger.

So here’s a piece of advice; let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough, and move on when things are not like before. For sure there is someone out there who will love you even more.”

Quoted from helloandgoodbye.wordpress.com. Whoda St.